wad was i doin? wad was i tinkin? i guess i'm a no-brainer ba..i shld be called xiong da wu nao ba..tts jus de rite name for me..i'm all screwed up n dead nw. i'm jus a nonsense gal hu cum into tis world to bring trouble to evryone..haha..wun everyone wish tt i'm nt born in tis world frm de start..i shld start to dissolve n vanish into de thin air frm nw..i jus realise everyting too late..17 yrs plus of yrs in tis world n onli till tis dae did i realise tis..realise tt i'm a mistake since de dae i was born..aint it too late?? i'm sori to those ppl whom i stepped into their lives..pls forget me, i wun be in ur lives nw n foreva..u all cn pop champagne ald...its party time! hapi partyin time! enjoy urselves. bye everyone..dun rem me..i'm jus nth.

7:31 PM



new yr le..dese few daes bz go bai nian..collect hong baos..visit relatives..n oso eat alot of junk food sia..nth reali special la..jus c all my younger cousins growin to be so big liao..haha..tis yr nt a gd yr for sum ppl..jus hope evryting goes well for all..n for me..hapi new yr to all

1:03 PM



cny eve..so mani tots ran thru my mind..everytin jus popped into my head uncontrollably..frm family to rls to frenz to skool to judo..

family: jus hope tt everyone is safe n sound,hapi always,less quarrels n bickerings. spend more time at hm. hab been gg hm late since de start of tis yr..so little time spent at hm..it seems lk i'm nt gg back to my home..but to my hotel..cumin back onli for rest..

rls: spend as much time wiz dear.tryin hard to accomodate my time so tt i cn hab time for him. am i doin a gd job?? i duno..cnt keep gettin upset or mad at him for small minor reasons..be more n more understandin..its been quite sum time since we both went out for some fun..hope tt wen de hols cum we'll be able to do tt..but i noe he'll be habin his exams after mine n oso attachment..oh man..

frenz: clazmates r close..i get to c dem everydae..but exams r cumin..guess dere wun be so much
fun ald..dere were unhappiness wiz some of dem..but nvm la..suan le..dere r so little time left b4 we'r gona chg claz..bear wiz de nonsense till sem ends..my old frenz..nt in NYP de..seriously need to get in touch wiz dem somedae..sometimes i do feel tt we're lk strangers ald..duno wad common topic to tok bout..guess i'm nt de onli one feelin tt way ba..

judo: still love judo..but hab been slackin way too much..i haben learn mani tingz..tink i'm de worst player in de club..such a disgrace..need to buck up..attend trainin regularly..mus train real hard..no more slackin..no more complains of pain anywhr..no more whinin..will try to attend de pt on sats..jus hope to do my best in de march ivp..dun care bout wad de club is becomin to..tts none of my buz..tts de commitee members' prob..

skool: exams cumin..projs due..3 wks left..wad hab i done?? need to buck up..i'm still lost in all de modules..esp mktin n micro..no more slackin time..for nw..it wld be study n study n more study..fun time wld be reduced to 0%. to get to the course i wan...i mus do my best in all de modules..dere r so mani ppl fightin for de 5 choices..dun wana end up gettin sumtin i dun lk..or even worst..repeat..

myself: gettin fatter..gettin de dark rings under my eyes..de eye bags oso..mus slim dwn..mus slp more which is impossible..nvm..slim dwn cn le..mus do it..cny cnt eat too much junk food..its a NO NO NO NO!

11:45 AM



back to updates agn..another wk pass..quite alrite..ky's bdae on wed..hapi bdae agn!! cnt believe tt me n xy wld be givin her de same ting lo..a wallet..haha..heard tt she gt 3 new wallets nw..haha!! cn use till duno wen le..jus nw went for de travel seminar..quite interested to go on de tours..but no money..sob sob..nvm..nx time earn more $ to go on a trip..den cn go anywhr i wan!! whee!! went semb shoppin center wiz dear buy his game..den went shop ard..met ky at yishun..i was late..so sori..hee..she went to trim her hair..nw nt v thick liao..haha..went walk ard den went to eat kfc..startin tokin bout our stuffs..seemed lk we gt de same probs sia..haha...but hor time too short..cnt tok more..hm..nx time ba..gt more time den go out chit chat agn..haha..

tmr cny eve le..so fast..den cny..dun hab de mood for cny cos gt projs to finish n oso exams r drawin nearer..so sian lo..den somemore nt gona spend it wiz dear..cos need to go wiz my family for visits..wun be meetin dear..dear mite be gg chalet..den he nx wk onli hab fri lesson..duno wen cn c him le..sob sob..other den de hong baos..i dun tink its gona be a gr8 cny..hapi new yr to all!! best wishes!!

9:48 PM



met dear todae go skool..look for ms neo but she wasn in her office so waited outside ltd do proj..mktin lect passed so slowly..webt north cateen eat yong tau foo agn..dear oso eat de same..haha..he copy me de..went lib slack b4 gg for lessons..was gettin reali slpy sia..wonder y..went to look for ms neo..she told us tmr gt tep orientation..oh man..1015..so las min..had to inform de whole claz by tonite..frm wad ms neo told us..it seems lk our claz wld be habin attach durin yr 2 sem 1..tt wld mean nx sem..oh man..its so freakin fast!! tt wld mean tt nx sem i wld habin attach for de whole of 6 mths!!argh...cnt imagine tt..haiz..mus reali go n hab fun durin de hols..n spent all my time wiz my dear n frenz..or else i duno wen will hab de chance le..sob sob..

ltr habin steamboat wiz dad wen he cums hm cos his bdae todae..yippee!! steamboat!! cnt wait..hm...din spend much time wiz dear todae..so sad..wad to do..haiz..

me bored in claz::













my footsteps:


5:33 PM



chaotic wk has passed..fri's performance was alrite..i screwed it up..din throw jane properly..hab a jerk..den throw her..my fault..sori jane if i caused u pain..such a shame..wasn in de mood tt dae..cos of sum reasons..kinda affected by de reason..wad to do?? audience hab eyes tt i cnt throw..well..disgraced myself.. waited for dear to end lesson n went cwp bk to eat..saw jane n ah tan..but din call dem..

sat went back skool lib to study..but it wasn env friendly..cos dere was performance downstairs..saw slyvester n olinda..at 3rd storey..deir singin nt gd..wonder y ppl still lk dem..weird sporeans..olinda gona release album..wun be buyin it anyway..dear came to look for me..hao gan dong..saw subi,scott,jeremy,zh n basong..dey were watchin de performance..nt bad..but de female emcee was practically shreikin all de way..nt gd for our ear drums..stayed till de las performance to watch tkd perform..beta den fri de..dey hab flyin over ppl too..but dey kick de board after deir flyin..well..i tink of all de martial arts,judo is beta..cos we learn brkfalls 1st b4 we fall..doesn hurt much..

jus nw went shoppin agn..look for heels..charles n keith din hab my size for de one pair i lk..so went metro bought one..under $30..nt bad..white color de..had dinner wiz my sis n bro..den went hm..dear is out wiz his frenz..hope he had fun..i miz him..cnt wait for tmr..


my bro wiz his 2 front teeth gone..


8:53 PM



todae bz n tirin dae..mornin 9 am reach skool le..printed out my proj report n waited till ard 10 b4 trainin starts..n i hab to leave at 1030..so hot n sticky cos i was wearin tt formal shirt n de gi..bth..ms gan din allow my grp to go 1st but after much persuasion, she finalli allowed my grp to go 1st..it was quite alrite..but de qna session was nt v gd cos nt mani hab qns to ask..rushed off to dojo but saw tt dey went to north canteen eat lunch..luckily i met dear dey all or else i'll be waitin for everyone outside dojo..did u noe tt i ate yong tau fo for 4 daes in a row n its de same stall?? cnt believe it myself man..die le..i'm bcumin yong tau fo freaK!! went back dojo n dey were all slackin ard..duno hu started 1st by pullin on of de guy's gi pants..n mani guys de were pulled..after tt we did rehearsals..quite alrite..everytin went quite smoothly..needin sum chgs here n dere..den it was time to go for de real ting..me felt butterflies in my stomach..band was dere,playin so mani songs..den gt de yoyo tingy...nice sia..long time nv c ppl playin yoyo ald..den we had to go lay out de mats..2 layers..area was quite small..everyting went well..de audience felt pain for us..but we gt more attn wen de bigger size ones r gona thrown..wonder y?? dun us small ones get cheers oso??haha..was reali tired after de performance..went ard huggin de gals..haha..btw..i gt 2 kisses on de cheeks b4 performin..one frm jane n de other frm karen..hee..jane went to hug chin long n i tink ah tan saw it..hmm..slacked outside club rm n after everyone left,me n dear went lib to slp..my lesson will start at 7..n we had 3 hrs to rest..reali dozed off in de lib..hee..went fj eat..den went comp lessons..gt revision for ica nx wk..cnt fail..or else will hab to repeat de module..dear send me hm..so swt of him..tmr gg skool wiz dear..gt judo prac cum performance agn..gg hibernate..nitez..hope tmr's performance will be a success oso!!

11:42 PM



frm tis wk..my timetable's gona be packed lk sardines..so mani tingz to do..so little time..n yet..my stupid immunity system dun allow me to recover my illness..hw gr8 cn my life get??yest judo trainin rehearsal,tonite practising wiz jane agn,tmr nite rehearsal agn,thurs mornin rehearsal agn,thurs afternoon performance. fri nt performin for me i tink..las nite we wun allowed to leave our gi in de club rm..wad is tis man?? y cn we onli put dem inside on wed onli?? wads de diff if we put it in las nite? wad nonsense r u tokin bout? kena brainwashed till liddat ah?? de club rm is ours..nt urs onli hor..pls lo..nw ald cnt go in long long to drink a cup of milo le..u stilll dun allow us to put de gi inside?? u tink our bags v light huh?? bring everydae?? i'm soooooo pissed off wiz u lo...jus feel lk givin u a few tite slaps to wake u up which i noe wun be of much help..wiz tt la-dy dere psychoin u, ur eyes onli hab nth else but b-l-u-e..sori to sae tis..but u'r cockeye nwadays..if tis goes on n turn to de worse..i'll definitely b quittin judo..dun wana c de judo club bcumin worse..i wun even gif a damn bout anyting..jus hope tt sumone is kind enuf to knock u out of ur senses n bring back de old u back..may u R.I.P..asshole..



10:39 AM





8:22 PM



wee..todae our 5th mths..well..de past mth cn sae we went thru mani tingz..i was bad..he was oso bad..haha..dun ask me y..but we're jus bad..yest was fri de 13th..quite bad for me...was reali sick..since wed nite..it was so bad tt wen i cough i wld hab to bend my body to cough..flu gt beta after takin de medi..frm my dear..thz dear..dear n i made a pact tt if i dun recover by mon, i wld hab to c a doc..i hate tt..but wads promised cnt be broken..bad tingz hab been happenin..lost my thumbdrive..lost all my files..which consists of all my projs..de most imp ting has been lost..haiz..if sumbody found tis..pls do return me..its totally imp to me..jus nw lost my ezlink card..cdln take it..so i cried..de more dear sae de more i cried..i felt v xing ku..i was reali sick n i was cryin..i was unlucky..jus felt lk dyin at tt pt of time..i hate to be sick..totally hate it..may i get well soon..went shoppin buyin clothes..hee..haben finish shoppin ma..wad i need nw wld be another top..n accessories..den shld be oki le ba??haha..watchin 'In Her Shoes' nw..halfway thru..quite nice..Cameron Diaz legs so long n slim n nice..wana hab her legs man!! oopps..jus rem..i ate 2 stuffs which i shldn be eatin..one wld be fries..a few onli..n de other one is Crunch ice cream stix..ooppss...dun tell anyone..hehe

8:52 PM



i'm sick since yest after judo..common cold n sore throat..reali bad man..kept on coughin n sneezin n floodin away de whole dae..felt lk a walkin zombie lo..haiz..shld stop here..cnt tahan anymore..need to go bed..but mus take de medi dear gif 1st..or else he'll da pi pi..*faint*gtg..tmr gt proj..ah chew

12:29 AM



yest was quite fun..gt mac treat by mrs nair,sakae wiz my dear.but skool's makin me crazy ald..wiz all de projs cumin in tis wk n deadline is nx wk..everyting is so cramped togeter lo..i guess tmr wld be de las dae o my play time le..no more gg out for fun le..except to do cny shoppin ltr..well..tts my life for nw till exams r over..sobsob..may god bless me!! yest's sakae was alrite wiz dear. we din eat much wor.i was de one hu suggested we play scissors,paper,stone cos dear seemed so tired lo..duno hu is suppose to be enjoyin tis dae de but end up lookin so tired, boo..loser will hab to eat sushi or drink a mouth os miso soup..haha..childish ma? cos i ate de 2nd helpin of chawanmushi,i dun feel well sia..all de way to de interchg i felt lk dyin..wana burp oso cnt..sat at de interchg n missed 3 buses..end up i walked wiz dear to his bus stop den walked back to take my bus..saw roy n jason..on de way hm luckily nv puke on de bus..but gt one stupid banglah keep starin at me..he tinks i duno lo..cn c his reflection cos we'r standin..stupid asshole..shit u la..sit dwn in front of me le den keep starin at me for wad? i get dwn de bus u oso turn ard look at me..me no chio bu..me no fig..me gt nth..u look at wrong person le..haiz..y ah??tis kind of ppl keep cumin into my life?? isit lk wad dear sae..den i gt nth to sae le..haiz..cn all dese stop??i dun wan all dese assholes to cum freak me out of y life!! get lost u bastards!

10:42 AM



todae such a gd dae for slpin...cos its been rainin since duno wad time..wana do my cny shoppin de..but tis kind of weather?? nah..dun lk to bring umbrella..n after yest's trainin..i'm achin all over..blame it on francis..nt in de mood to do anyting leh..jus feel lk slpin all de dae..butgt tut to do..boo..hm..one ting i'm lookin forward to wld be sakae sushi wiz my dear dear..lalalala..cant wait for it..sushi time!! gtg..more updates..soon..

3:11 PM



woke up at bout 8 to go skool for pthaiz..result was disappointin man..onli 5 gals includin me turned up..gt karen,xy,wanyi, jess n me..francis was late..givin excuses...haiyo..wad kind of sensei is tis??trainin mainly is runnin..trained till v tired..we keep scoldin him sia..haha..our clothes were dirty..had a shower after de trainin..so refreshin n feel so light..met dear at cwp eat lunch..went to sun plaza to eat kfc cos cwp too packed liao..we ordered de 'Fortune Fiesta' eat till wana die..muhahaha..cos gt 8 piece chix, med fries n whipped potato n reg popcorn chix..de ppl look at us lk we weirdos liddat..jus wana ask dem 'nv c b4 2 ppl eatin tis amt of food ah, huh??' aiyo..went civic lib after tt..look for comics..de bks limited de..cnt find dem..found sum which i tot was interestin..dear send me hm..he sae gt one guy keep lookin at me..well..i duno cos i din notice..den dear oso sae tt guy keep lookin at me wen i gt dwn de bus..i din notice agn..de guy took de bus one rd back to interchg agn..made me tink of wad happened tt time..scary man..yeeks..y r such tings happenin to me so often?? get away frm me cn?? luckily tis guy din follow me dwn de bus..or i freak out..mayb even teach him judo..haha..i'm prayin hard tt tis kind of stuffs wun happen to me agn..plz!!

4:41 PM



met dear go skool todae..studied in lib..dear watch movie durin his brk..ate dinner at fj b4 dear go meetin n claz..jane came look for me at after her lessons..she waitin for ah tan till 8..lk me..tink every fri cn meet her liao..went eat mac after deir lessons..de rice burger frm mac no nice de..eh..den sumtin happen wor..dear suddenly v fierce tok to me..cos i gif him face wen he burp..scare me..tot he angry liao..wen i sae bu li him..he reali bu li me..dear reali angry liao..but we did he hao on de train..i admit..tis time is my fault..no more nx time liao...reali scared tt he one dae reali bu li wo..wad will i do?? dear is rite..i'm mostly de one hu's throwin tantrums..shldn do tt..mus chg..dear..gt sumtin to tell u..but sae here v mei chen yi..do remind me to tell u wad i wana sae wor..hee..tmr gg for pt..mus rest early..

10:10 PM



todae de lessons seemed to take foreva to finish de..time pass by so slowly..had bk for lunch wiz lynn...den lasted till 6 den ate wiz dear..passed my mktin ica..hehe..any pressie for me?? *wink* went fj waited for dear to cum..dear let me play de jie lian huan..difficult for me..but wiz dear's help i cn seperate de ting..wahaha..yirong v pro..jus did it in awhile onli..cos she play b4 ma..mani skipped comp lesson todae..claz ended at bout 9..cos we requested de..whee..went toilet tt time gt scared by emilyn sia..she ah..always liddat de..either doin la-me tings or scarin ppl..zhen tao yan..haha..saw dear dear was standin outside cheers dere..lk tryin to hide at de staircase dere..but saw his shoes liao..haha..jus nw took bus hm tt time saw tt dere was an accident..few motorcycles n a lorry..gt police cars oso..haiyo..tt road always liddat de..so mani accidents..pls drivers...do drive carefully oki?? dun speed ah!! bus was packed..gt one indian aunte de butt keep touchin mine..eww..nt once but mani times..she ah..took chance to fei li my butt onli..haiz..y ah?? my butt so nice meh aunte??haha..
gt mani pics tt i took loooongg time ago..hee..










10:51 PM

me lookin weird..wiz lynn

11:08 PM





woke up late..but lucky dear msg me n woke me up..he was gona be late oso..haha..thx dear! well..ended up i wasn late..still hab time to go buy my train n bus concession..hee..wore de shoes bought wix lynn de..bought brkfast at north canteen but ate at mac..saw jeremy..well..saw him doin sumtin tt i find bian tai..cos he touched his gal frenz butts while tokin to dem de..nt one gal but 2..i was lk huh??hw cn lidddat de??hw cn de gals let him do tis?went lesson took my test..wrote 2 letters till wana die..met dear for lunch..dear..me nt angry tt u wanted to go play ur pool hor..reali!! i dun mind u playin pool cos u haben play for mani mths le..nx time gt chance do go play oki??rem ah..me nt angry!! thz dear for rushin back jus to eat wiz me..waste money on taxi fare..sori..dear sent me for lect..took his specs wear..hehe..jus tryin to act nerd nerd de..gt take pics wor..waited for dear end skool. went hm wix dear n kenneth..den went cwp buy pencil case n bracelets..one for me n one for dear..diff de la..hm..need to study accs..sianz..wana cry liao..tmr gt lessons till 3..no time to rest b4 judo..hope trainin wun b tt tough but tmr dey gona do reheresal for open hse tingy..wonder wad dey r up to..haha





me, my beard n me



me n lynn shoes..nice rite??


8:26 PM

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3:52 PM




its nt reali fun but at least i spent it wiz dear..de las min of 2005 and de 1st min of 2006 i spent it wiz dear..wo shi xing fu de...dear oso ma??hee..new yr new beginnin..mayb i shld start wiz new yr resolutions n follow dem well tis yr..i'm gona be a gd gaL..haha..

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